Many of you have recently watched my recent upload of the short version of my testimony. I was sharing with a friend of mine, how God showed me a vision of what was happening in the spirit realm while I was going through my demonic manifestations. If you did not watch my Short Testimony that I recently posted, this video will not make sense. So please watch that first.
In my prayer time of thanking God for pulling me through such dark times and not allowing me to die in the midst of my sin, I asked Him, What was restraining me on my bed? If you can remember in my testimony, as soon as my manifestations began as I was lying on my bed, I felt a something restrain my hands to the top of the bed and my feet to the bottom. It was as if invisible ropes were tying me down. I could only move about an inch upwards and no more. I was not in physical pain, like one would feel if restrained by actual ropes. What a strange sensation to see and feel your body restrained without feeling the pain of it!
After I asked God what was restraining me, I closed my eyes and He instantly gave me a vision. I was back in our condo in Chicago, on the balcony of our 16th floor unit. The Lord spoke to my spirit, “Those were angels holding you back. For I would not let the Enemy take you down.”
I remembered a distinct sound as I was lying in my condo, alone and on the phone with my little special needs sister who was praying for me. If you’ve ever lived in a high rise, you get familiar with the sound of a bird’s body thumping against the glass of a building. Sometimes when the glass is clear and the sun is not shining off it, the birds do not see there is glass, and they fly right into the window. It makes a very distinct sound. As I was writhing on the bed, receiving prayer from my little sister. She cries out, “God, help us.” I hear a thump, thump, thump, thump…all in succession from each other. Only this was not a bird.
I saw in my mind’s eye as I heard those sounds, large Warrior Angels, with their wings spread out, slam against the windows of my condo unit all around. Wing tip to wing tip they were lined up, to provide a heavenly insulation around my building and especially my unit.
This vision gave me a fuller understanding of what happened that day. Not only did God restrain the enemy who wanted to compel me to jump off my balcony, but He answered the prayers of my sweet sister who could only say, “Help us!” Her prayer sent out a legion of angels to not only insulate my unit so the neighbors wouldn’t hear the complete chaos inside.
God was with us every step of this horrible nightmare and I have gone back to these moments with such gratefulness to be alive for in that one day, my life could have been over. If any of you are struggling to believe God has something good for your future and you are having a hard time trusting Him, let’s give God that burden today. He wants to rescue you.
“Dear Heavenly Father,
You are full of mercy and grace! For I am alive today!
I may not be where I want or need to be, but that doesn’t matter because you’re here to bridge the gap.
Today, I lay down my agenda. My fears, my tears and all those lost years.
Only you can redeem what the Enemy has stolen.
So, I give my broken self to you.
Lord, help me.
You’ve kept me and protected me. Today, I give you permission to direct me.
What can you do with my broken heart and life?
You promised to revive dead things, and I will stand on this promise.
Jesus, today, I commit my heart to you. I accept your sacrifice of love and blood.
You died to set me free and you promised to make me a New Creation.
I’m ready to make you Lord of my life and to explore my new life in Christ.
Take me, Lord. I am yours. In Jesus’ name, amen.”
