I had a disturbing dream and I felt led to share it.
In this dream, I was terrified, running and hiding from creatures who were chasing after me. These creatures appeared skinny, bald and scraggly. Like the gargoyle-type character from the Lord of the Rings.
One of them caught up with me and I used this moment to attempt connecting to it, human to human. This thing looked at me with eyes of darkness and confusion, expressing they couldn’t understand because they didn’t have a heart. I got the instant revelation that they didn’t know how to love or care for anyone other than themselves. Not only was this sad, but the revelation was scary. A person without a heart is capable of the most depraved acts.
The scene began to shift into what looked like a horror movie. I could see the world getting progressively darker; violence was thick in the air and my survival instincts kept me alert. It reminded me of the verse,
“And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.
But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.”
These gargoyle demons began aggressively chasing anyone and everyone…even each other! They violently ripped off the flesh of anyone around them, eating it to stay alive. There was no hesitation, remorse, or sadness about their actions. Only selfish justification—I began to hear their thoughts, “I have a need and nothing will stand in my way.” I woke from this dream at 3:19 am, drenched in sweat. The ache and heaviness in my heart remained for two days. I also suffered from a severe migraine that lasted two days.
Of course, I journaled with God asking for clarity.
“Julia, the theme of your life is a love that overcomes. There is a growing battle over the hearts of men and selfishness is the drug seducing people into depravity. The vision you got was extreme, revealing the nature of the beast looking to devour anyone given to it.
You must remain vigilant. In prayer and in your purpose. You must be intentional to fast from the ideals of this world for it will cause a numbing to your spirit. You must be set apart to have a tangible impact. As you fill up on m love, my righteous anger, and my redemptive spirit, you will be given what is needed to make an eternal impact.
I want you to fast from the worldly influence that chips away from your heavenly resolve. From the time you were little when you first opened your heart to mine, you heard me whisper, “Julia, you were created for great and mighty things.”
This world has filtered the meaning of that. But I want you to seek my perspective for the true meaning. At every decision and crossroad, ask yourself, “What is the more God created me for?”
I believe this dream was not meant to put fear into our hearts but to prepare us for how the enemy will attack. It reinforced how cutting yourself off from love cuts off your connection and, in the end, the less we allow ourselves to love the more we become filled with another spirit. This spirit is vile and selfish. It seeks to sustain itself by destroying others. Remember the dream started off as a chase but it got progressively violent. I believe this indicates that gradually shutting yourself off from love, empathy and compassion will turn into hardness and depravity. We must be sober and pay attention! When our hearts feel cold and cut off, we must cling to God for restoration and healing.
Let’s pray that off right now.
This world compels me to look out for myself; but if I listen to that, I will bow to the god of me. I refuse to worship myself and be a slave my own desires. You created me for a beautiful plan and purpose. You desire what is best not only for me but for those around me.
Help me to trust you. Lord, you are my God. I look to you to provide not only my needs but to give me the compassion of Jesus. A life of selfishness does not make room or time for others. This world is thirsty for kindness, mercy, forgiveness, and compassion. Expand our hearts and gift us an unconditional tempered with great wisdom. Give us a sensitivity to what matters to you.
Remind us of your original design…we were created for community! This means we must partake in the goodness of the imperfect people around us. Give us the strength and discernment to know who and how much we should give. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”