I felt led to share what I journaled with the Holy Spirit about on March 1, 1025
Heavenly Father,
Is there anything you want me to focus on these next few months?
The response:
I’ve been calling you into more time centered in me and I desire your undivided attention/affection. I’m thrilled when you take steps of intimacy towards me but I am still searching for your full heart.
Remember the days when you first began trusting in me? How I would speak and you would come away to steal more moments with me? Now more than ever, I feel a pull at your attention and affection.The phone and your busy-ness (cloaked as my business) have clouded your ability to fully plug into me—your source. Just as you must ‘turn off your phone to keep it running properly, I need you to “turn off” your attention at the distractions which draw you away from fully immersing in me.
To get a ‘full charge’ for your phone, you must let it sit and wait. You used to be okay with waiting upon me. Silence and stillness wasn’t an issue. But now, your flesh desires to be occupied and you have indulged it to such a degree you struggle to be fully with me.
My heart grieves because I have so much more of me to give! The healing, anointing, identity you’ve been asking for…is in me! But how much do want these? How much do you desire me?
I will never dazzle your senses like the Enemy for there is no competition. My Presence lies above the flesh, but you must wrestle your own flesh to reach me.
Come away. Fast and Pray.
The enemy says this will be a waste of your time, but this is a grave lie for without me, you can do nothing. Invest wisely for the anointing you need does not come easy or cheap. But, it will quicken the gap of delay and pave the way for others to receive what we’ve built in our time together.
On your side of heaven, time is a precious gift that can never be returned. But, it can be redeemed. I see your investment and genuine pursuit of my heart. My desire is to fulfill your true desire—which is me.
Do not let the enemy distract you from what you really want and need; Intimacy, connection, purity, sanctification and full trust in me. I choose you a million times a day. Will you choose me a million times?
“You will seek me and find me, when you search for me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13
“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.” Colossians 3:23
“You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide.” John 15:16
“Who are chosen according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, but the sanctifying work of the Spirit.” 1 Peter 1:1-2
“Heavenly Father,
Thank you for your tender patience.
I repent for allowing my heart to bow at every distraction; for you are worthy of my full attention and affection.
The temptations and draws of this world are sublte and all consuming; reset my heart and mind with a pure desire for you.
You are more than enough!
You are worthy of my whole heart.
Forgive me Lord for saying this with my mouth, but choosing you last in my life.
Today, I rededicate my heart to you.
Wash me clean from the sins of complacency and apathy for they seek to snuff your fire from my walk.
I can’t walk with you if I am not talking and listening and turning my heart towards you.
I give you all I am all over again.
Renew my heart, mind and desires for all I want is you, the lover of my soul.
In Jesus’ name, I am complete in you and you alone. Amen.”
