On April 8, 2024 I had a vivid, disturbing dream that I felt led to share. This is taken straight out of my journal upon waking up. I made sure to ask God to give me an interpretation of this dream and I’ve included it as well.
Journal entry:
I was hungry, cold and lost. Wandering around a street that was dark and decimated. I heard voices and rounded the corner to find a make-shift restaurant in the middle of the street. It looked like someone had pulled equipment from a building and set it up there. All buildings were uninhabitable.
I didn’t have any money but I was tired and hungry and sat down at the bar. I didn’t have any money but when the guy asked what I wanted, I ordered a hearty breakfast anyway because I was so hungry.
Everybody in the restaurant was staring at me looking as if I were the most mystical thing they’ve seen. They all looked dark and soul-less (like a Tim Burton character) and they were studying me, calling others in the restaurant to get up and get a closer look at the light emanating from me. From my perspective, I did not see a light coming from me but from what they were saying I was glowing and shined. They were mesmerized and I could see flashes of envy and intrigue but they were so captivated that as they crowded closer to me, I backed out of the restaurant and nobody noticed I didn’t pay for my meal. I walked away unharmed, strengthened, warmed and confused, pondering what was happening.
The next scene I was at an old stripper’s friend’s home getting ready for work like I did back in the day. Her boyfriend who has always been warm and kind looked at me with narrow eyes of suspicion and dislike. It was jarring for me because we used to be trusted friends but something in him shifted and he no longer was the same towards me.
My goddaughter (their daughter) ran up to me, so excited to see me. She was in a fancy gown and because of her excitement, she wet her pants. But she wasn’t a little girl or baby. She was a pre-teen about 12 years old. Much too old to wet her pants. She dashed down into the basement to hide in shame and I descended the steps to chase after her. The basement was the exact opposite of a basement.
It was a large atrium with high glass ceilings. It looked like a bird sanctuary. There were tight ropes suspended across the ceiling to the other side. I saw lots of strippers crawling up these ropes and swinging hard so when the landed on the wall on the other side they were smashing themselves violently against it. It was so shocking all I could do was watch in horror. My god daughter followed the strippers. Everyone was in a trance. They had a look of dread and terror in their eyes but they were compelled to move and could not stop hurting themselves. They look tormented.
The scene switched to the strip club. I was finishing getting ready there and the manager was instructing me to do my hair and makeup to look like a doll. Like the customers were preferring the girls did not look human. Requesting an AI bot. It wasn’t an option on how to style yourself but a rule to look as unnatural as possible.
The house fee was to be paid up front–$7 I didn’t have the money but the stripper next to me promised to help me out but only if I swore that to help her out when her moment of need arose.I felt a heaviness upon me and noticed her deep anticipation for my yes. I was frightened as if I was signing up for more than what was being said, frightened of that this could mean for me in the future. But, I had no options and felt I had no choice.
The dream itself was physically and spiritually dark. Everyone in it were acting like rabid beasts-only looking out for themselves and their own interests. It was survival at any cost. The eyes of everyone were soul-less; they looked at me with intrigue and awe as if what I carried drew them to me but they were also looking to see how they could use or strip me of my benefit for their disposal. The only kindness given seemed to be leverage for future manipulation. No one was being kind or generous for goodness sake.
God, what does this mean? Please tell me more!
The world will be getting darker in every way. (I found myself trembling as I wrote it, not wanting to put those words down.) This is why I am calling my children into their prayer closets, into deeper intimacy with me and my word. For my Word is the light in you. You who activate my word and live in grace, love and truth will shine like glorious lights of hope.
All will be drawn to you but some will wish to destroy you for your light only illuminates their twisted distortedness.These people did not look human because that is not my original design for humanity. I did not create men to be debase like animals—to think and act based merely on survival. I created man with a conscience. But many have seared theirs to the degree they have lost their humanity. They have become zombies (in the spirit) a sleep and on auto-pilot- submitted to the dark culture of the world around them. They are ravenous, filled with rabies beasts who are wild and destructive. Willing to destroy themselves and others because they hate what they’ve become but frustrated they don’t know another way.
I am The Way! The Truth and The Life! I am the light this world is looking for. Show them who is inside of you! You are the light of the world! Shine for me! Don’t hold back. They might try and destroy you (just as just as in your dream they couldn’t touch you.) I will always make a way for you to be fed.
Pay attention to compromise and making wrong alliances. For just as that stripper in the dream offered to pay your house fee, there are motives behind some kind deeds as if they’re from me. Not all gifts are a blessing or from me! Discern the spirit behind each altruistic deed as I do not want my people entangled with silent covenants made by accepted offerings. Traps sent by the enemy to ensnare you! Be vigilant! Watchful. Kind. Generous. Giving as I lead,not from guilt, coercion or manipulation. Give from a pure heart without expecting any return.
Only take from what I give you peace over. You sat and ate the food at the outside diner because I gave you peace about it and when it came time to pay, I hid you behind the veil and you owned no man anything. I want you indebted to me, your Heavenly Father, trusting me to provide it all. I do not want you indebted to any man or system that is not of me. Trust me in all things, especially in things you cannot understand. I will provide a way out or through. I stand by my promises. Prayer of repentance, protection, and God’s guidance in the coming days.
*Note, because I worked many years in the strip club I often have dreams about that place. To me this always signifies ‘the world’ as the world has become more shameless in it’s defiance of morality and embracing debauchery.
*I felt my God daughter signified many girls who are my ‘god daughters’ in the spirit; the young generation of girls forced to ‘grow up’ before their time, doing things they feel shameful and remorseful for and don’t understand the torment, oppression and descruction that come with it.
If you want to rededicate your heart to God today, agree with this prayer:
“Lord, I thank you for allowing me to hear the warning of what is coming; not so I go into fear but so I can step into the soberness of my faith and calling. I repent for giving more attention to every distraction; help my my mind and heart to remain tethered to you.Return the passion of my first love; of when I made you Lord of my life and how you were the center of everything.The little foxes of hope differed, delayed answers to prayers and unchecked bitterness and resentment have put me in a place of luke-warm faith.Forgive me, Lord! Bind up the trauma that has caused my heart to go numb and complacent.Holy Spirit, make yourself at home in my heart. Convict me of everything that has put a wall between us. I surrender to your Lordship so I can hear your voice and follow your lead in these coming dark days.Let the oil in my lamp be continually filled by my intimate communion with you, your word and your people. In Jesus’ holy name, give me all I need to stand and keep on standing for you. Amen.”
